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14 November, 2007

Misery.

Update (5:13PM)

Went to the doctor and they put me in a new cast. Apparently my ligament has loosened up a lot. It is already to the point of my normal knee and this knee has been confined to a cast ever since surgery, so it probably will on stretch out more after I get out of the cast. The doctor put me in a cast for another 3 weeks. And after that, if it isn't better, well apparently I am just screwed and will never run, etc. again.


Original message (10:45AM)
I'm miserable. I am so sick of my house and not being normal. It has only been 3 weeks since I had the surgery and it honestly feels like 6 months. I went to the doctor yesterday and they took off the cast only to find out it hadn't healed as much as the doctor would have liked. He wanted to put me back in the cast but I pleaded to just be in a non-hinged immobilizer. Well I got home and I started getting so scared by the immobilizer. I just didn't feel as secure and I really do not want to run any risk that I don't heal perfectly. So I am going back in this afternoon to get the cast put back on.

I didn't sleep at all last night, so I am exhausted. And I am going to go into the office after the doctor's appointment. I just cannot be at home any longer. My work may kill me. And I am just feeling so worthless. I feel guilty what I am doing to Justin. I know coming home for lunch or working from home or not being able to go to Richmond like his work wants must be impacting his career too. I really don't want to be negatively affecting his work too.

Blah. I am just miserable.

Posted by F.C.G :: 10:52 AM :: 2 Comments:

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