Engaging

25 September, 2007

What happened to September??!

I am exhausted. I don't feel like I've had 'me' time in forever. There is always something going on, something to do or some where to be. I am either on travel or trying to cram as much into the little amount of time I have at home. And I just feel I do not have enough money to get ahead. It is driving me nuts because I feel so thrifty!

So the weekend was odd....overwhelming. My pregnant college roommate was suppose to come and spend the weekend with me and we were going to go baby clothes shopping and maternity clothes shopping. I am in Raliegh on Thursday and go out to dinner with my friend, Mari from high school who is getting her Ph. D at Duke. That was a lot of fun and at the end of the night we figured out that she was heading up to DC for the weekend for personal/family reasons, so I offered her a ride. We left NC around 1:30ish and hit the road. My roommate was leaving some time that afternoon and getting into town around 7. I got a phonecall about halfway through the trip, and she was crying and saying she thought she was losing the baby.

Well to make a long drawn out story short, she did lose the baby. It was ABSOLUTLY terrible. I was so upset and crying and felt like my heart was breaking so I can not even begin to imagine what she was going through. It was terrifying. To believe that at out age, people are going through this. It is a reality. And I never really had thought losing a baby was really a reality, just something that happened to other people. So sad. The only thing I can gain from this is that I will handle things differently and probably won't tell people I was pregnant until I am further along into the 2nd trimester. And at least I know that this situation acutally could happen.

On Sunday I drove to Covington to spend the day with her. She was doing okay. Obviously in pain and upset. I was glad to spend time with her and offer any (if any) comfort that I was able to. It was quite a bit of driving and I just crashed when I got home.

And that is how I feel every day is going. I work work work then make dinner then work then crash. I would do anything for one of those days where I can watch brainless tv/movies or read magazines. It would be fabulous.

This weekend is another Blacksburg weekend, but the good thing is that Allie is coming up for the weekend and I cannot wait to see her and get to hang out, without all the wedding details!

Then back to Raleigh again for another week. I have spent this week filling out all the paperwork for security clearance at postal. That has been a headache in it's own, but i won't get into that. All I can say is Screw you Labcorp!

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