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21 August, 2007

Had better tuesday's.....

This is getting old. It is a month tomorrow since I had surgery. I miss the gym so much. I am starting to gain weight and I really am trying to watch what I eat. I haven't been to the gym in over a month now. It is getting me down. It just really is making me upset with myself and wish things were going a little bit better. Here is my day.

Woke up
Went to work till noon
Came home
Worked from home and had 2 hour long phone meetings
Went to sleep at 5PM
Woke up at 8PM only because Justin made me get up to take my medicine and eat
Going back to sleep now.

And I get to do that again tomorrow, then Thursday and again Friday. I feel so lazy. I am exhausted by the afternoon. My knee is at least getting better. The infection is definately going away. It still is VERY hot and hurts pretty badly, but it is improving. It is so stiff. I am back basically to the same I was a week after surgery regarding bending it.

i am going crazy....I have never been lazy. My parents put me on a swim team when I was 3 years old, then I started tennis and golf, then I started soccer. Moved to Connecticut and played a lot of lacrosse, kept up with the swimming and tennis. Went to Chatham, played a varsity every season: Field Hockey, Swimming, Soccer. Then went to college, played on the water polo team my freshman year. Then I started running, then triathlons. And now I have done nothing for a month. I honestly have never taken more than a few days off...maybe a week if I was really hurt.

And now all I do is sitting around. I don't find enjoyment in domestic hobbies. Knitting, Crosswords, etc just don't do anything for me. I love reading but I am so exhausted that I either forget what I just read or I fall asleep.

I shouldn't let it get me down so much....but it is.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Posted by F.C.G :: 10:17 PM :: 0 Comments:

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